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I wasn’t planning on starting my diet/exercise plan until after I got back from my parents house & my trip to virginia, but I thought about it & if I am trying to make this a lifestyle change….then why would I wait? So today is going to be my day 1. It isn’t going to be what I would like to do exercise wise because I have carpal tunnel syndrome & a problem with a disk in my neck that are really acting up badly yesterday & today, so I’m just happy to be moving at all today, but food wise I am going to take control.

So here I am sitting on my bed eating ice cream & donuts….with a frozen pizza at the ready. I know that I need to lose weight & I desperately want to lose weight & I’ve been able to lose weight before, but for some reason I just can’t bring myself to do it. I think it has a lot to do with my living situation right now. I have a few roommates & feel very stressed out & on edge when I am at home. This Saturday though I am moving into a new apartment!! I’ll have my own fridge so I can fill it with my own good foods & no one will eat it without me knowing!

I want to look wonderful & thin at my wedding this summer, but that pretty much can’t happen in this short of a time period, but for the second wedding next year I will have that be my goal. My real goal though is to be thin & healthy for life, yes my wedding is a big deal & i want to look beautiful in the pictures but hey photo editing works wonders really though it’s more important for me to be healthy & live a long life with my husband than be thin for one day because I was absolutely starving. I have to go to my family’s house for a couple days before I move into my apartment so I can’t officially start any diet/exercise plan for a little while, but the important thing will be to start making healthy choices even if I can’t count the calories, or at least take an educated guess on the calories & go from there!